Monkeying Around

Its funny how we sometimes spend our whole life searching for something that is right in front of us, sometimes the journey away from home helps you realize that there was no need to search in the first place. We are always looking for that one thing to make us complete and yet never seem to find it, probably it's due to the fact that we are not blessed with the gift of sight, I don't mean that in the literal sense but more on the spiritual side. It seems to be, that which I have spent the last decade searching for was always at home for me, but I was blinded by my own ambitions. I guess sometimes on our paths we just have to stop and listen to what is happening around us and take it in.

~Speak No Evil, Hear No Evil, See No Evil~

California

I've been contemplating a lot lately about my road and so far it's been a rocky one, I think it's time to admit when I've made a mistake and be man enough to do something about it, I think I've finally come full circle, I think its time to go home...

~To be free or imprisoned is a choice that's in your head, you choose the paths~

Graduation

Went to my cousins graduation in Decatur, and it was pretty nice, it was at a church or something like that. We spent the day celebrating and then went to dinner, nothing too extravagent. Afterwards we just stayed up watching movies, like I said nothing too extravagent.

~Every man comes to a crossroads in his life where he must choose a path, the road he chooses will forever change his destiny~

NOPI Night

Went to NOPI on saturday night, and it was packed, luckily my boy Thai was able to get us in and skip the line. It was pretty ghetto being that it was 18+ that night, its always the young ones who want to be rowdy. I think we all had a pretty good time though, we were celebrating John's birthday. At the end of the night a big fight broke out and then someone pulled out a gun, it seems whenever I don't bring out Zhuan drama always happens, I guess in a way she's my lucky charm.

~Time stands still for no man~

Keep On Trucking

More good news today, finally I feel like I'm moving forward again. Probably will be trying to take another salsa class again with Zhuan, yeah go ahead and say something, buy once yall experience it, it's totally different. This weekend should be fun, I have a NOPI after party to go to, and we got the inside hook up on it, so I'm hoping for it to be wild, I need to blow some steam off, cause I haven't been out in a while. I just wanted to thank those people around me that continue to support me and believe in me even in my current situation, especially my family who have never given up on me, I appreciate it even though I don't say it, I won't let you guys down. Tomorrow I'm headed off to the races, what can I say I'm addicted to speed, haha. Summer is officially over and what a summer it was, I did so much already so I can't say I'm disappointed, but the funny thing is I'm actually going to miss the snow fall in Boston, maybe I'm feeling nostalgic but go figure! It's funny I've only been here for about 6 months and I seem to know all the clubs and lounges to hit, don't get it twisted I've been to almost every tourist site to see and I'm still not done yet. Its so funny, I'm not the same person that I was in Boston, down here I'm a social goliath, if there's a party I'm there, anything big happening in the ATL I have a beat on it, I'm always going out trying to meet new people and expand my network, I'm so much more outgoing and relaxed down here. I have big plans in Atlanta and hopefully I will accomplish them.

~No one is luckier than he who believes in his luck~

Steps Forward

Just received a positive today, finally I'm making forward progress, hopefully this ship won't sink. I feel really bad, I feel as if I'm letting all the people who believe in me down, more the reason to work even harder I guess. Even though I struggle with my own demons I don't want to let them down, that would be the worst. Someone close to me, once told me that the worst thing that you can do is waste your potential, which seems to be what I'm doing right now. A few bad things happened to me this week, or should I say to the people around me, all I can say is that it taught me a very valuable lesson, as to who is really here for me and who's not. No one will every understand why I do what I do except one person, and they are no longer a part of my life.

~You can only focus on that which you can control, everything else is secondary~

What next

Its been a rough month, the first part of this month has seemed like a dark cloud continues to loom, bad premonitions leads to fear of the unknown, knowing that it's going to happen soon. This picture pretty much sums up how I feel right now, on top yet still locked down.

~The paths that we choose knowingly leads us to the roads that are unpaved~

The BBQ

This past weekend was my cousins birthday, so I took her out to the club the night before to just relax and have some fun. It was pretty ghetto at the club, we actually walked in on a booty shaking contest, I was surprised to see a white girl in the finals.....go figure, its the south, nothing but sweet tea and grits, any ways I digress, we ended up having a good time and partied into the early mornings. The next day she thru a bbq and it was cool, I had almost forgotten the feeling of being out in nature and how much I missed the outdoors and lakes. The bbq was held at stone mountain and it was a pretty nice place. This is definitely something that I need to do more of, they even busted out with the "pinata" and everyone took some swings, Including Zhuan, especially when it was the wrong time as you can see from the pic.

~The journey is long, the paths short, the sacrifice many, the rewards plenty~